Honest Desperation

Almost a week ago I found a note on the ground. I'm not one to show and tell other people's notes, but I was so moved by this that I feel the need to share.

When you approach the Lord how honest are you? Often times I hold back, I don't want God to know how upset I am. After all, I am supposed to be joyful and keep on the Christian appearance. If you're truly honest with yourself you do get frustrated with God and He already knows that! Your spiritual walk may go up and down, this isn't a bad thing. Sometimes you are not doing well, and you just want to shout at God. Express to Him how you are feeling, work through that while continuing to seek Him and you will be enriched through it.

The following is a true expression of just that. God delights in it. If we could all be this honest with God, think of how He would enrich our relationship with Him.

Let us lift up our hearts and hands to God in heaven.

                                   Lamentations 3:41

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Jesus.

I need Your love. I am lost for words. I am confused. I have no hope in You. My heart feels strained. I feel a burden placed on my soul. I need rest. I need comfort. I'm not happy. My joy is fake. I am desperate for a taste of who You are. One glimmer of a picture or peace from You would mean the world. I know I am trapped and stuck without Your freedom. I am not pure. I find hope in things that aren't You and Your ways. I am hopeless.
      I NEED YOU. 

      I NEED YOUR COMFORT. 

      I NEED TRUTH.

I want to understand who You are and what You have done. I am so selfish. I want so much and yet You give things I don't see. I am desperate to see through Your eyes and see TRUTH and not lies. I need protection from the enemy. I want You and know there should be less of me, but I hold onto my selfish wants.

     DELIVER ME FROM LIES.
I want to worship You freely. I want to be engulfed in  Your love. I want truth. God, I look to You and ask these things and want to trust You. Give me hope. Help me understand who You are. I am desperate to know and love You as my best friend.

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Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37:4

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